Fiber Spinning

Der stoff of super colliders in one word, cozened open, impossible to reconnoiter, boundary stones of sculptures made like severed heads, this fantasy, of course, starts out with  arresting strangeness: Strangeness, report to base! the science in its secret labs. Of course, I in my timid body did not wish to have them in the neighborhood, intruding into this relatively safe world, in which it was possible to read stories in peace of mind, free from fear. Paronomasia, a word used in different senses, similar in sound to achieve a specific effect, humor the dual meaning in those who intend to pass the land. Commissioners were appointed to search for them. The notion was that if it stopped the nose or breath from the stench entombed beneath, suggesting they were overrun while passing, both the searchers and the buryers, turned from their work stopped their noses from the effluvium. "Passengers" are travelers and invaders buried in  the tumult that after made this valley bear their name.

There is a heavy sex to colonialism, to the army, navy and air force, and later the drones, a digital sex, plastic USAs...on Army wheels...out west producing sex organs. The image withers like a Cialis commercial, snozzled, in pyknic profile, as if America were a plastic statue on the dashboard of some spaceship held on with suction cups that listen in to the beats of a heart. So when you travel outside the country stay away from the natives or it will spoil your trip. I picked all this up by osmosis. It didn't help that I was reading the Grand Inquisitor at the same time. I would not have survived these disquisitions without the prior years of allowing the true leaven access to heart and mind. Not enough, never enough. So it was American light, American phone, American freedom, not light and freedom in themselves, the one species of white man decreasing. Ruben Dario made that impression, peppermint jelly exploding at night, Alexander, Alexander, Alexander-Nebuchadnezzar is white. Of course that was naive, since the imperial has visited most of the kingdoms, states and nations of the world. But are we too harshly judged by the light of our worst acts? Presidents added up to conspiracy. This Calendar wouldn't cross the water any more than the later book sent to outer space embossed in asbestos on the outer shell of some spacecraft would be grokked by the Albigensian on Betelgeuse. Little still life bookmarks were paged into these satires, a 1584 London maple chest saying, GIVE THE GLORIE TO GOD ALLONNE, a phrase carved into a sideboard at the Folger, but the context sullied and doubted, when the enemies of GLORIE took over. This is civilization. Be glad and walk ye in it. American light, liberty, the chest which is really mocked in the portmanteau of the fictional Orcs while Hesper is singing I love you, I love you, a little like the dream princess, except merchants dream of new Americas...nose the Bermudas, ravish Virginia, as Thomas Randolph says. This cover, off, reveals nothing at all, stolen from Allen Ginsburg on a boxcar somewhere pressing nudely on the honey tube. When I read that one for the radio station the tech was so convinced he bought the book, but the Christian values are two edged in the context of everything else. Would that they produced a falling off of stretch on the stalk of sexual colonialism. Spring to the arms of burlap, poke a stitching, jam a smock. Nothing must be covered up. Not that these cannot be as vulgar as a Volkswagen Puppy in prodction, or corpses sprouting out in the snow in winter that come up with crocuses. So it says among the vulgar, this rose gives many a care of its dying.

Synopsis: Bridge, Get Away

If it is possible to have a novel without a character so called, the character here is ourselves en masse, as a collective and a society of the world wherein certain mythological conflicts overwhelm. It is important not to spell these out but to let them creep into our consciousness as in fact they have done over the years. New Philadelphia is a colony, an out post on a Hadrian’s Wall inhabited by refugees who are confronted in their new environment not so much by nature but by myth and this is the record of their adaptions backgrounded by salient features of the first settling of Philadelphia by those mystics of the Wissahickon Creek as it passes through the gorge to merge with the Schuylkill River into the Delaware and then the sea. The series of transfers of water are like the transfers of culture from that old world the colonists abandoned to the new one they know nothing of. Who could know of it, inhabited by monsters worse than the Odyssey and with no heroes or overarching great cause like Helen or Troy or Truth. They thought they were reliving elements of the Odyssey, descendents into hell or hades let us say, signature of that hero. In the beginning their obtuse recommendations were as confusing as scruples against geese. They excitedly questioned each others nerve. But the five microcosms did not notice either set of believers. Since the mystics were predominant, Leviathan was invited which introduced extreme oddities of topography. The majority in that town patterned their lives and homes after this sea monster they saw in the stars and in the cosmos, if not actually in the sea, casting omens of earth and fire and trying to foretell the future, for all the good it did them. They sacrificed to Poseidon right out of the Greek, so though they believed a child was born pure and innocent it was not scrupled to live among tens of millions in the womb. These contrasted with the harbor seal Baptists as they were called, who would begin speaking along the jetties and walks with their eyes closed and go so long that even after their audience had long departed they kept on with their antiphonies. They anointed themselves elders in a Council of Watchers to oppose the intrusion of their so called nemesis from the sky as much as Leviathan was the mystic nemesis from the sea.

There are many ways to offend those who have not seen the cracks radiating from centers of implosion of fissures like Tycho in the Moon, colony craterlets, orbits of  phyllotaxis, divergences perceptible as the shape Ohio once was, or became. It too existed after proof of some finite intelligence at work, occurring passim, the a priori  rendezvous-proving rule,  circle down to circle for one who descends, crossings seen in the meeting-places of more than one canal.

To call them canals is a faux pa from the planned obsolescence of intelligence that once existed, like thinking the world flat mistaking rivers for canals, spheroid for flat, something as if Gilgamesh below the Euphrates Beltway to which people dug tracks and underground trains in their temples to convince themselves theirs was a perfect world. These tracks, taken apart, were not seen, for this they did not do.

Every effort to conceal the one cell organism known as Mammon-Oranus, a huge intestine of money governed in Secret with its primitive media nerves, multilayered in a newfound. For you know the gut has a brain stimulating the tribes with “wow pulses,” This *Stockholm-Munchhausen mosaic of tribes caught between the  coasts of the present-day fabulous and  history would digest money, excrete money, displace other processes of being. After exposure that the Secret mind could produce these impulses on its own would gurgle would not be spoken full in words.

You will understand that it's hard to accept the time to move on and start over. That's why colonists see themselves in the paradox, to have a thing but not know it, wait a  life for a thing to pursue it, do nothing but wait for the thing to renew it, do nothing but wait for the thing to undo it. Frost beets, cracked skin, stout limb, opaque beneath, lives and minds drive what we don't know while we think we are doing something else, and for different reasons too. Spelunking moles, contracted for the moment, fill in the entrance to their sea cave and write stone letters in shale creeks below, who have seen many things, but pay no attention, whose ears are open, but hear nothing. Such reverse timpanis of Beethoven’s 9^th  pick a phrase, invert it, splice at will. A drum becomes a word. A word becomes a boom echoing in earthquakes. What hubris, to think that after a thousand generations, alive in the last, that the life of governments, books, civilizations disappeared, when they clearly did not, to say that both sides prevented this revelation. Who says there are two sides? Colonists underground and Plain Folk. The one to bring it about the other to dissolve, which thoughts compel the verse I execute.

Adverbs before nouns in the foyer, ballistic glass lacerations at Chelyabinsk,  American Ground Zero, fairly intruding, we have these moments to remember. Smart talk on the rug, ambiance, facts please, and then the door. Liqueurs, bracelets, chairs keep the surface. Wittgenstein lifts his head on a pedestal at Airpark. Could that head speak it would say the colonist like a mouse is meant by the Armed Forces to be an experiment to save itself.  But inside the colony, no-colony, to serve the greater cause, I cannot in good conscience  apocalypse  the mouse. We assemble today therefore against this blind cosmic doctrine. Shiites have Nostradamus to thank for their escapes, Nostradamus, Blake, St. John fall on all heads. Colonies and colonists underground stand cataclysm, hide from rocks in rock. The colonial underground is clearly not made to recognize. The moon, Dulce or the Archuleta, take your pick clonies, aliens or gfovernment, although you spell check hard. When the fgov fills in the harbor at night, tigre extremes, you get the pint. I read The Apocalypse of Stars. It is an honor to join our brothers where they throw bodies into tombs that come out alive from Elisha's bones, who only wants to be taken up, but has to wait like and here, now, when the angel looses its vial and Euphrates dries up like a fig, the Kings of the east march.

 This utterance of language, roots and alphabet is the least spiritual power of the Sons. But the meaning was not in the sound, to look in the sound. The meaning was not in the syntax to look at the connections. The meaning was not in language, for the words, the languages were within the still voice that spoke. Indeed they sounded, but like what language, none or one or all and what did they say, impossible words from the deep?"et erit illa frenans transeuntes" made "a place there, a grave to be buried in; on the east of the sea"; a valley through which travelers used to pass a sulfurous lake, to which there may be  allusion to the sea of Chinnereth, or Jarchi and Kimchi; which sense is a passage to the east of the same sea, a road to the east. Stop of the nose of passengers; the ill smell of  months observes this monument passing where the multitude shall fall, the reason for their being out of the way; which sense again notices that it is near two mountains that a city, as it were, once magnificent, among any that you name that come to mind, Rome, Jerusalem, at their best suffer an implosion, superstructures falling into rubble, parapets mixed with fountains, holy and unholy, better than the organ meat and tissue of the twin towers where  cardboard crumbled, we give it that. These were real brick, marble, stone whose parts withstood demise of the whole, skeins lay tangled, and that's what remained, except the city was a paragraph, the whole precognate concept a rubble together, five sentences tangled in one, images broken and misplaced for the cranes, so to speak, except our cranes are accident and sound demolition which pull the parts out from their tangle to reseat them in the colonies, passengers and the like, the whole city rebuilt as it were, not that it ever existed, but if it didn't how did this mess end up on the ground? You see the point that out of chaos must come order, as if it described the valley where they bury his army, the Grand Seignior general  Antiochus, such of it as remains after the fowls, the bones left; himself also a sepulchre, to perpetuate the memory that this event is future, which Calmet takes to be the army  defeated, "locum ibi sepulchrum", or Starckius; "locum ubi sit sepulchrum", Cocceius. (c) Ebr. Comment. p. 585. (d) Dictionary in the word "Vale" (e) So R. Sol. Urbin. Ohel Moed, fol. 66. 2.((f) "et erit illa obturans transeuntes." Here is an edda to enjoy in the Lindisfarne, Wycliffe, Tyndale, German, Scandinavian or English which Sea captains, gold cargoes, frankincense souls, multinational corps, blondes, City/Woman nations, Gilgamesh starring with Ishtar as "the foul goddess" with bond traders, globe internats unmasked.  Intercourse. Intercourse  Alejandro-Nabucodonosor,  mountaintops and rivers, succubi Christabel now hold their  hands and wait for them to ring. Uncapped pirate samurais with credit cards. That's the adagio.

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 My first work was to obscure these landings. Like leaves blown into letters on the street, that spell things we do not want to know, I water and tramp the obvious. But word shells wash up. The sea paints pictures in the sand so fast words are futile. I am very busy.  The sand is obvious. By the time you read this forest fires will be burning trees into sentences. It is late.

 Metaphor of the Leaves

Inmates and police had common cells. Their brains are studied to promote robotic sources. Corporations, Universities, hospitals run the arches. Careerists, norm police provoke madness as class rights. The bosses pretend not to notice weekly instances of mutation in the malls. Hospicio Cabañas, built as an orphanage becomes a deconsecrated Man of Fire. Gaslit doubt is built here. Centers for Brain Health make diseased brains. Memory, perception, sanity, projection, introjection hold trials. Psychopathic auto cut flash clip frescoes bloom and darken, crack and spall. It’s certainly too much to believe public events staged. Evidence is an iridescent airbrush. Stagings are incomplete. The needs of further manipulation are a comfort. We are thrown out of the circle.

 Landings
Rival views of the Landings were endlessly ridiculed. No one thought from the staging that the technological revolution was staged. “Facts,” were broadcast with analysis of the “facts.”  You could say I came to the grave worlds to ask, “whose is this, which one is this?” Mummies of a thousand years, white to bone would understand the analogy with Maurois’ Tragedy in France — possess the soul by Vichy confederates and propaganda – or Why England Slept — appease by fabrication and myth. New titles for quislings: Global Science, the Alien Savior.

The first Quakers of new prose took documentary form, gathered first hand, culled from sources. Literature factura. It was a lot like pouring a concrete foundation, prosthesis of flat folded sheets of the unspoken. Should words get a public burial? Authorities overruled. The idol of government held bodies responsible, buried beneath and got on, site of some secret. To bury something dead and gone came every word spoken.

The burial was secret because the kill was. Watchman Lee used to call it dead Adam. The list of beliefs, poets of influence, heard and unheard, cried in vision to hear the same remixed. Cloud powers split words into sheets.


Arches

  There is no obvious connection between this horizon and a series of dreams of dozens of arches I remember from the message of the leaves. A colored image of a nose bleeding among honeysuckle. That was under an arbor of bees flying. Yellow and white fragrant tubes. Coming toward me, my brother, blood flowing from his nose. I am four.

Another arch preoccupies the county home of Uniontown, PA. I visited at ten. Who visits an insane asylum at ten?  A long whitewashed tunnel extended to either end. A padded door swung massively in on metal hinges. The inmates ranged outside the tunnel and in to stumble and moan. The path was elevated above its gutters so it could be hosed. I didn’t smell anything but disinfectant. I am going down this tunnel. There is slobbering on both sides.

Now you see them hunting also in cemeteries at night with spades and boots. Radios, novels, microwaves seek to restore communication with lost powers. Flashlights look for turned earth, but Adam’s residual soul was secret. Oracles out of  power were reduced to writing. A cry in the river of light, to write anything human in speech, to navigate a sea so warm the leather hides of the boat smoked on its stretched frames.

I landed just as the freeways were built, ordered my own dump trucks of dirt so children could slide down feet first as I did the original slag hills where I grew up.  Houses here had been bulldozed to pavement.  Excavation began by flood light at night. There were ringside seats all day. Leave came to walk the barriers, explore the pits, but not one artifact was found. Kmart, at 16th St and Roosevelt, yielded hundreds. We walked the freeway at Christmas that year, picnicked on the bridge over 24th St. before sliding down the berms of shale and dirt.

I lifted one of their dictionaries. The Social Impact of Technological Slavery — begins with the European Discovery of America. The new Indian replaced with social, political, commercial new worlds made room for psychics and glands. Discoveries overturned for murder. Ex-terrestrials bigger than Columbus enthroned King Pentagon. Like the arch angel, timing is all.

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A HISTORY OF CHE GUEVARA’S HAIR  revised
History of Pyruvate Phosphatase

Revolution does not dialogue with itself. The thing that made this clone was that the shared experience was gone. Each Day brings out the test tube shot, to play it all again, but it doesn’t make you trust this narrative where heads detach. The hallucinated have come to tell you that yr utilities are being shut off.

To spark such riddles the thing is not quite in the middle cloud of nuclear explosions being dodged. And, another decap, the thing that is, is not. Another decap! Just two guys on the assembly line making heads and who trade barbs of inward glory that few can share. “Our mistress thigh is nothing like her bum.” It’s the same metric, and all, and the same rhyme. Only the words are changed.


Two little babies was sittin in bed, standing on the assembly line assembling heads, they sent for the doctor and the doctor said, yammering (in italics),  you go below I’ll stay above,  trading quips to the background noise above. of the heads, of the heads of the suppernumery heads.

This Plus a reminiscence of their arrival by boxcar in the underground with fellow captives, once entitled Psyche, the Sir Edmund Lockerbie.

With a concluding postscript of the fgov. in German,
Me and Wold 

You go below I’ll stay above, the Volksstamm Director thought, as directorate does. So be consumed, Agencies melt to stone. I’ll get back to you. Government functionaries, military illuminate kings and queens. The super horned rich from previous screens. Blood only brood, gene women mainly propagate new. Under cats. Will there be no men? Wie die Farbe witklich!  Will there be no culture? Ground Blink. Human growth culture shock. Lit, music, art drugged, gene pools raise the children and their dogs. Controls oppose proles.

Shrunk heads are a comin, their ears are in sight. I didn’t think the disbods could learn, but they could sure talk. When I told the Company they were unteachable injections were served. I call it a Company. It was an American Adam startup that wanted finally the last of Gibbon. None of the buggers could hear, so we, me and Wold, sang to mock the engineers, the influence of a mind on itself, the dependence of what it does on what others have done and that’s how we found out the heads could talk.


I went down to caverns measureless to man with no markings except codes, wandered 14 levels below the stairways Capitol.  Nun, seine Seele hat Schmerzen! The walls went down from stone to plain carved rock. They storeth artifacts, statues further down. I struck the hours till I found stairways up. None connected to another. I kept walking to an elevator, pushed Up, found myself in a non-public Capitol, told them I was lost. I had a clearance tag. To think I can imagine it. Passages slope to where the hearts are stored. I’m not supposed to say the halls are lined with liver. Busts of decaps escorted me to the main, sanctioned with different means of taking. Professor Filbert said those heads had been transplanted from someone’s empty neck. Prisoners rode that way out west with guillotines attached.

What do I do;
what do I say to myself;
how do I look at people?

Rows of heads exhibited at the Underground Met gave insight in three second bursts. Ten thousand times ten thousand galleons supplied a part to act as if the others were. But since Johnny would not head-off grandma subjects were delivered through passages in the mouth.

Heads worried that the bug would unify the H.
Heads worried they wouldn’t be able to fill the NASA quote
when Canaveral replaced Mauthausen.

Nobody knew the horror but Mr. Dick. Outsiders policed the house, more like themselves than not, the Strams Mundane Alien Corp. There is a lack of clarity about the imaginability. You need a lotion.
Then I looked up–and there before me were two women who lifted up in a basket Che Guevara’s hair. Comparing DNA hair from the mausoleum in Santa Clara, Cuba with his DNA body finally put an end to Time’s 100. Voice to skull technology, plasma conduit rendered. With wind in their wings like a stork, the eyes of Che burned with impatience. Wold and I could see every good disbob strung up to the Animate Machine: insectothopter, adiabatic qubits, augmented cognition, synthetic cognition.  Lewis’ Devine babbled like the Head of Cuchulain: Three deaths.  first when the body ceases function (meaning Licklider psycho acoustics). Second when consigned to the grave (neuro prosthetics). Third in the future, when your name is spoken last.

There were of course more than three deaths in this underworld. The first was when they took a head from its past and all association and harnessed it up. Bosses on the lookout for more heads sorted these by vocation. Philosopher Wisensteins, Wittgenstein’s head, pontoons of Huxleys, Aldous, Thomas, and Russell went down with McKenna. Oxytocin robot ethics, and LIDAR against fear. You nitpickers call in doubt what you don’t even know, that aircraft carriers were sent in that first attempt to colonize Neptune. Simulacrum never quite conceals the truth—it is the truth which conceals. My Borgs adore you human dyads linked up to machine. 

Many on the waiting list received oxides under old grants. Encephalics breed far more imprints than they can use. Einstein was reassembled, all those autopsied divisions were false. Whole brains  in the underground had so deeply infected de Garis he couldn’t sleep. He stayed up late and talked to the heads. Consciences were swollen with predictions of the coming Third War. Etherized on a table, we heard him mumbling among our heads:

“jolted out of nightmare I see lithium, spraying mood stabilizing, bipolar mania, fine tremor, nausea,  hyperthyroid weight gain. I see Dante leave the malebolge toward the pit. Tuft by tuft in a century or so the hands of giant Nimrod. Blow a horn, other giants chained Abimilech, superior to Mordred, Italians frozen in cracks. It shake me. I don’t….”

We have reached the point exactly where the thigh beam ends at the haunch’s curve.
The palaces of our imprisonment were on the news. Lightning flashes from both sides of the brain detached the vitreous. The head detached-severed brain that minds think under control. Microheads call it dystopic to believe people would be needed. How else invite Colonization with the mouth of Presidents? Nobody has figured it out, but do not close the ears.

In his dream Lockerbie stood next to a jello baby in a carriage. Those pumpkins felt the dilemma of man on the steps of the universe. Wenn es vorkommen kann, illuminations like
“unthinkable and authorizing at one and the same time. First comes the outbound journey, search for the strange, voyage postulate of monsters, storms, then comes the savage. “I am powerless over compulsion. My life is unmanageable, but I want to do good.” Concussed by torches of fat, “Chaos resists  where most I suffered.”

Ninataka uji butter, vortex yam yarn, rayon fiber spinning, first viscose plant marcus hook, american viscose lewistown.

If you’ve never seen an A-head close, outgassed in its suit with the headlights on, these translator models hold dialogue with the Sophias of hierarchy. A-Heads can be promoted to Shiner after their induction–or disappear in smoke. Disrobes had a body, but a true Disbod had none at all. Disbod discarnates emptied into lit.

Lockerbie

Somewhere from a beaker sealed up tight Dr. Lockerbie raved about the giant complex of Vacaville Prison, latter day experiments, anectine on Leary and Manson. Lockerbie wondered that if he worked for all the  parties in question, and then went missing, which one would do it? His Jersey Report put the unthinkable gas on  tapes made during blackouts as they were dragged from cerebellums. Do you know where your microbiologist is tonight? They emptied the prisons first. How ’bout your local computer scientist? He end up in our Boxcar  missing. Seeing the world-vast war citizen, cheap seats in three second bursts, subliminal gold is what St. Stephen saw: you made gods out of stars, worshiped heavenly bodies, had a portable Moloch for your Saturn to carry the idols you worship. That’s what Sir Stephen saw in Weimar B.

Lockerbie gave these discoveries as we rode, information that under the Washington Capitol giant moths were loosed. The world big see. Disturbances covered up the reports that 500 Pumpkins Colonize Saturn. These rumbled down with the Cantwell Titans and their landings on Mars. Lockerbie had two mythless effigies drop in opportune, the severed decaps and the spinners, one by reduction, the other spun. Spinnrade Gretchen a little while. 

Mag-lev shuttles repel below Lockerbie says. Eat the cake and leave the bread. Sakharov, Mayakovsky, Turgenev, Bogdanov injected the mice the fliege-hausen know. How far to make a better life for cows. Prion contamination and encephalopathies easy to sound. That rare Neanderthal Caveman Swelling stacked up at Sufi Port! Cage after cage of A-heads flew according to report.  Smoke manifests at the crater level of space invisible to the naked eye, there! metaversal flesh if you believe.   Would that the touch were employed to clean and  fix.  It wasn’t our fault the heads could talk. Maybe raise up the scopolamine levels. I worked the west where dissidents exited from their ships. Ships, trains, it’s a little hard to nonspeak once below. Don’t worry if planes are trains, or if they aren’t gesucht wird, hängt, It dependeth on what paradigm. Don’t worry if human cells have an impact on animals.

The notion is that if a head is missing you can supply the brain. The brain bypasses. Inject both Kirk and McCoy. That’s how Lockerbie found out the hundred ruses a programmer got. Made to be a Gotling, a goatling deduced from secret signs. Planetary companies invented thousands of substitute names. Many Made One! [MMO] Many Be One, druga, druga! Shaman, priest, prophet, ruminate.  Heads back, that is, before the Anectine. Their dementia synthesized and marketed a search for the old afflatus.

F Gov

If you wonder why I’m telling these staged events as real, they’re not. Clues thrown out of the circle discover a consciousness no one wants to know.  It’s not the eyes that see any more than the ear that hears. The brain fools the eye, the eye doesn’t fool the brain. If the scene is unremembered is never “seen,” never was, even if passed directly into consciousness from Control.

 Somewhere undergrounds monitors turn blank. That slogan, all institutions are demonic?  Three hundred pyramid levels below, Hawthorne found the government roof failing. The history clone died talking.  No outside sun, new to many. If colorless, it gives no sign. Watching algorithms, cameras, microchips, blood pressure, heart rate, brain shift, It was conceivable they watched everybody all the time. Et Tu duty, outside Revelations 18. After losing their first encounter on earth the Neptune forces gave out drugs and meditation.

The unconscious anybody can see these Ararat divines in the EU parliament and in Breughel, or in the Guggenheim and Denver. The FEMA train beast, animated within, originally carried cargo manacled end to end. There must have been a market, there must have been a market.  Rocketing down the night tracks sealed, no cracks in the floors like Weissmandel, rabbi of Slovenia,  cut with a dull blade through the bottom of his  Nazi box entering Auschwitz and escaped like Lockerbie.
When it comes to planet, who gets this base? The daemon Blum recruited when the trolls fanned out. Wenn du also sagst, du habest. Natives tranked, stored random guineas, the best and brightest genes of f gov know the calculated ehad Selective Service complements. They tranked.

Infrastructure trained in faculties underground.

Programmers foresaw that iconoclasts must go.
Presume you go where none has gone before.

 

It is necessary to distinguish two governments in this, but the government Underground did not forgo the home market guillotine use. Who would not want a guillotine they grant, where a stray rooster could be dealt, or cut bread. All who join the guillotine throng assume the honor of Sir Thomas More, and if his head is not yet battlement be a subject for Madame Tussaud.

Forty foot containers have a guillotine end.  You find yourself in the Amtrak Branch Beech Grove of the Jersey Report among those martyrs who oppose the gods, who lift the veil, as judged by Psytarch. Even though Lockerbie escaped the Gundersons cars, the airports and underground bases, it hardly seems a bridge to a peaceful mind. Under that circumstance the Psytarch revealed those tin men and undersea rebel tentacles, half human, half animal crabbots, mutants with scaled arms, paramecium, parts of butterfly wings, scales, hydra,  fish with bared teeth, snakes that look like Klansmen, defecating upturned eels, fins, helmets, wasps, falling geese and shattered eggs, clams on half shell contending, angels with red and gold armor, a disc of white above, against the creatures of the water below.

                                                     Before the semiotic tip of DuPont Circle the left ear of a head of secret architecture inhabited by the entertainment patriot matrix, you can get cozy if you want. They said he was a good New Order guy, aught Virgil before Homer, a revival of the old Apollyon  nee Abaddon Altar Pergamos Denver CERN. Screwy acronyms like MOAB, Mother of All Bombs, tipped mine shafts nine craters deep. Locked in the ninth vault of Virgil was the Seal of the United States. It still needs to manifest. Various feedback loops connect this last to what the spinners in formation say. Read these texts asleep and then awake.

Note: hat at
All disbod speech is in italics.

editors@cafeirreal.com

 

Notes of a  fellow of the Marfa Research Institute

This underground of the most advanced predictors of human behavior, including interstellar travel as much as exploration of the inner alogical world, are drawn to the alogical because it represents ourselves in some way and because these represent ourselves in some way. Witness all the means of predicting, divining the future from casting sticks, cards, coins to liver dissection. Anything but live in faith, which requires something more, or less. We look into this because we would look into ourselves even as we deny it and us. So I thought to set down here some of this inner world to go along with the plenteous outer so very rosemaled upon the chests. For this celebrated event, on the first of every year, we gather to explain to all sympathetically minded a society of humanity with no grand design except to know ourselves and our civilizations, which are hardly important since they are artifacts we ourselves made.

What we call Oracles began history much before Egypt. And whether you attribute them as those offspring of the sons of god who went in to the daughters of men, or prefer both to a portmanteau, a baggage of traditionally carried belongings as much as the body itself, this chest containing its valuables of heart and lung, which we should no doubt call the hard drive, in addition to its ambiguity, had a surface aspect of such creature/artifact that it resembled a rosemaled decorated immigrant chest. Yes, it is as if you carried yourself in a bag, or were yourself a bag. This body bag caused all the trouble seeing as it predominated the brain, the will and the soul, all of which societies became the vortex of the innermost principles of the world. And even if none or few were aware of  it that is why New Year's Day is my favorite of all, since there is utter silence exhaustion of the outer forms. As they boast, where there is alcohol there is no cold, nor sleet, nor snow. There'd be snake dancing that night. So fill your gobbets, toast dark night and silent morning! And then take pity on this world where everything grows shorter, day, time, life, memory, tribulation.

Help in cracking the Orc schist must begin not with geology or furniture or psychology, but with fondness for ornamentation that is made evident by examples, so to call those decorations of the body bag as such, as if bag and chest  were furniture of a kind, chest and chest, which demonstrates a simplicity, a slippricity of the whorlicle mode,  an oracle made and not made, interpreted in simple lines and sturdy construction as if made for everyday, whose object of representation were a quiet transparency in which inner reposes in outer corresponding dimensions. There comes a point when the enclosed panels of parrot-like birds with tulips and fuchsias, a color ground of red brown, Amish blue, cypress green is made impossible to represent without overarching sorrow. For how has such been lost, and why? Who knows. Are inner and outer opposed in order to deceive? When the blood rushes into the skin the inner movement is visible. The ventricles of the heart and the inner parts revealed in such  designs as raised unicorns, but  also rampant upon the tulips and lilies, square panel flower sprays in a vase, medallions circled with overlaid six-pointed stars,  pomegranates  and carnations; you get the picture, are much easier to observe  in the outwardly visible, but only if the inner movement is intimated. As though the outward color were the inner's leave taking, and the form was its fugitive hiding place. A hint that raises hair on the neck as if the bridge between inner and outer had been revoked form space.

Flaking Under Flex-There is much debate of this purpose and purposes to nurture society and much effort at finding out it's cause, since the last thing believed is that the sons of god went in to the daughters of men. The ink spioloed over that conundrum has not ceased. Like the blood that runs away from the surface revealed in a sudden pallor, invocations of the notwithstanding, for a long time there was attempt to trace whether the cracks in the finish, a kind of varnish or sheen over the decor, were superficial or deep inside the natural coating.  This always begins with interrogations, inquisitions. Statements taken a hundred times go back and forth,  as  if pacing in a room above us going back and forth and we hear the echo, we hear the sound thereof.

 My Prisoner of Chillon, as you walk back and forth in your by-chamber, what gives rise to these questions but your own nature and every additional accident of thought repeated bring out this one aspect of dispute, if we imagine a chest as a shell or carapace, one worn flexed with vibration around the edges near the F-holes, its craquelure steadily advancing between the breasts we may say right up into the middle of the back, then we conjecture that there the thing comes apart where shoulder meets the belly, from the back down, as if a sacred script were stamped in the original, beautiful and clear, legible to all. Then in a moment is discerned on the breast a piece of armor in the form of a heart, or some such, on which one can read all about it, especially since then the figure externalized draws attention to itself. If you sense some impending calamity, some crack in the cosmos from this, that self knowledge is so dangerous as to draw out in time memory before memory, like ragpickers and collectors differentiate value from trash.

Some think this flex of differentials in the dermal layers is caused by the sealed uncured layer inhibiting drying while the outside fully cures, being exposed. When it is held up to the light as though it were a lens, and projects an image of itself onto its exterior, the outer layer dries faster and it shrinks, causing fissures. This takes years to occur. If the inner picture is too refined to look upon, woven from the delicate insubstantial not immediately seen, once the cracks begin they are unstoppable.  If the surface is flat the crackling looks a lot like tiny linear fractures which refract in moving light, and a very crisp flaking.

So fastened upon this distraction it is a reflection too which must be drawn aside to view within. These flexes are the oracles themselves, which our civilizations have sought for millennia, sometimes called bone script to be read or interpreted by the knowing. Thus begins the hazardous conflict that leaves behind these footprints, meaning shells, not only, but very coracles of wisdom themselves. We train thus every day to see this scale that covers all or part of the Oracle body, but not the scalp, which depending upon interpretation of its helmet-like crust some call pigmentation, and may imply disordering which has nothing to do with this world. Whether it is disorder or high order, the highest order of the senses is why some thought that there should live in that head a lodger who had nothing to do with the world, but lived out a lonely life unknown. Certainly the object of our observation, our interest, our passion, to know what we cannot know, to do what we cannot do as if we were such creatures ourselves.

Whether water is air, air water, or earth fire, it is all the same in this head that receives telegrams from both sides, the outer and the hidden deep, looking long and attentively to discover whether there is not another face within the faces that it meets. Since the same dissonance occurs in all art it is better not to prejudge. To our eyes the classic carapace resembles an adapt with a  helmet and mantle  that displays a sheen, much like that spiritual armor which you shall be permitted to convey. This face inside the face, that looks out the way an immigrant looks toward a new land while remembering the old, these days embodied as a maquidore, or rail splitter we shall need a special eye to see, painstaking, persistent, compelling, to probe inward, and benevolent too. Do not fail benevolence in your candor. In the deep that makes breathing easier. What it is we seek in the present instant and past is in the moment we turn the corner and disappear. Whatever the case, we feel safe to take the thing as a being a subject of phenomena we know as heart and light, for the heart must be sensitive to light. So it is possible to find those with exteriors as firm as rock who pass the hidden curiosity, discontent with the external and the superficial, to search the heart and the hidden, to know the invisible.

Chartiers, Soul Spinning from Humanyte

 

Chartiers

By the time a child gets to be nine and light enough in its own nature to walk the surfaces up and down those tracks with a gun, to shoot out insulators and climb cliffs, pull the dressing off the pollution, reveals what the child discovers, there are slag pits and strip mines in every valley of that square mile of ground. Overtop a pasture of coal-neuks flames sometimes roared up in dry spells from the trains. Farms across the way made an updraft that gouged a burn, rose a hundred feet, fought with mats and rakes, so the sheep will take no harm.

Fascinated with this territory of unregulated space, there was a literal Fairywood forbidden just downstream whose future contained a four-lane ghost Industrial Highway meant to connect UPS and Amazon under the Thornburg bridge. That’s where the Fairywood industrial miners, Russian, Pole and Slovak first lived. Fairywood  had been made for miners and gandy dancers who laid track in Pittsburgh before machines in the early 1900’s. A  patch  town of Russians, Poles and Slovaks lived along the creek, replaced in 1944 with BroadHead Manor, converted in 1953 to low-rent housing for war workers. It was called The Projects, inhabited only by blacks. Construction on that four-lane Industrial Highway began in the 1970s in Fairywood. Now a light industrial park where Giant Eagle warehouses resides with UPS nearby.  How could it not be called a ghost highway? It was never finished.

The series of cliffs above at the top were pocked with mine holes and caves. To strip mines and slag piles add a kief of resin between the sawtooth toes of the transdescendent feet of iron and clay. Do not fall into the great pits of green water steep on all sides. These too were filled by the same engineers who turned the black smoke white as the freights came up the rise. A carry permit is recommended for those who fish for cupreous and mudblack sulfate fish from the creek at night from jon boats. At some shore spots in the rocks night crawlers can “catch a little silver trout” (Yeats, “Wandering Aegus”), but those who search the Chartiers banks for flatheads among sunken logs, bends, and undercuts are not without harassment from remaindered projects down from Steubenville Pike.

The town up from the old Thornburg bridge, Thornburg, where the precipitous bend of the Chartiers occurs  was where the outlines and skeletons came out with a supply of flares and torpedoes near the wreckage of trains. The creek, the coal, the railroad and the boy happened together in that day. The water route of the train followed the creek, steep at the beginning and end of line. Double tracks followed to the Ohio, but stopped on that bend before Scully Yard, switching and shunting long enough for a child to get on. Laws required freight trains to employ a caboose and a full crew to look out for load sift and hot axles, search the tracks under the cars, check the brakes, and put out torpedoes and flares to signal the train behind. All the real is symbolic. The child could walk the rock hills the rails set on, balance the strip-mined hills and galligaskin forests where the coal slid hundreds of feet down the chutes to rail cars. The   rugged and steep basin terrain falls 500 feet to the Ohio where coal shipped when the Chartiers was high. Deforesting and farming added to the floods. That branch of the Pennsy crossed the streambed 19 times in 23 miles. Acid solids and iron dissected the Pittsburgh Coal seam, made it one of the most polluted watersheds in Pennsylvania.  If you're one of those that likes to know where everybody went when he left home,  I was a character of this natural force. Names sweep the ridge behind the teeth and probe the throat for the author of ten thousand stats in the unsanctified thought that all human beings are geniuses.

My gestures, your gestures, the look in the eye, a walk among doves feels like walking among the trees in the cool of the day. Do not be one with the world. You don’t come out of childhood unscathed. Coal extraction is like that, dissolved and precipitated. Topsoil brushed with power shovels and bulldozered seams of overburden mix soil and regolith in long parallel ridges. Vegetation and bramble prepare cartilaginous cities of the mimoid progress.  Society reports from the Ghost Plane that every man is his own priest and wisdom a pyramid of Sav lasav, kav lakav, drunk, drunk. Like the Day before the Flood these mines sluiced a katabole. The trains would end but the Creek run on. Such like steam and coal inspired Hawthorn in his Moss to say, “I am not quite sure that I entirely comprehend my own meaning in some of  these blasted allegories... I am a good deal changed since those times; and to tell you the truth, my past self is not very much to my taste, as I see in this book.”  We're actually smelling each other as we talk.

Literature, language and land preoccupy birth suppose layers like coal fields. Continually pleating, in the DNA of a family producing 1026 pleats in the ten generations of three hundred years, a child can date innocence as far back as the ocean before. To open the pages like the coal of a black rock book lying horizontal in the zone of change, buried vegetation again and again in waves, in three hundred million years dried and covered and buried again embedded, incised, scratched, scored, and recovered, was stacked onto cars on the Pennsy Railroad. Next to the railroad tracks great cubes of steel had rolled down from train wrecks to the creeki. They stuck up like the cargo of abandoned ships. The rails followed the creek and the electric lines followed behind. Carboniferous Pennsylvania on Chartiers Creek in the Pittsburgh coal seams was first sea shore and swamp.

Should you share your life with a river and tell your spouse one day that the fire of love comes out of your hands, that the  ephod bringing succor there is no need for  telepathy. Like a rushing wind and a fire that comes,  coal is not ready for repentance, drop by drop emblems of conduct sulphur the aureate rocks. On the river of the mind below, chartreuse shirts with yellow scarves not over or under are around and through.

 

On that side of the cliff overlooking our thoughts and acts on the tracks, scorpions would crood for the mills. The elbow culverts gushed oil against the window panes of the school. The largest class ever seen set sail. Always rural, elemental snow maples, elms, pilsner from the balconies of houses on the mountain heads to the river mouth below, snowflake navies storm saddle the sky. We call them Divine Gates. Long trains rotate like wheels in wheels. How can these not appear? Precognition and serendipity evidence the skein of the worlds, the onion simultaneous at once. That is knowledge of the worlds, a medieval quantum told with Giotto and spiritual beings. Do they come many into one, one into many, expand and contract together as you look at the stars to bring them to earth? Gold-shod prophecies congregate in bushels like  pears.

Lord of heaven, help me!

for you have made me in this street

wear bones & marching feet

surely we heavenly meet while are bound to meet.

 

Franz Kline’s black and white Wilkes-Barre tracks were not much to his taste either where the chubbed smoke exploded  bellows undermined with cuttery corn and ruth dug from the ground where Vater Eberhard walks tracks with a gun and collects torpedoes on a whim to fasten and drop with a stone. When that first coal hauled down the flood, Flotsam hailed Jetsam from tree trunks on the bank that He was in the world and the world was made by him and the world knew him not. He came to his own and his very character spoke the Heraclitean  pity and indig | nation! / Sheer off / Manshape, on one hand swallowed in the thousand glitters, but on the other, the poor potsherd, | patchwood immortal said, "listen, let's go down and fight a war" (Hopkins).

 

Place makes the face, the soul conscious. Excavation of the autonomous. Shall Thy wonders be known in the dark, Thy faithfulness in destruction? Shall the dead arise and praise, Thy righteousness in the land of forgetfulness?  Take the body as more than an instrument, as an event, position itself. To grow an experience of the sentient means instruction with a pierced ear. It becomes a musician of that Place to transform an event.  So Steam locomotives belch sulphur and aureate cinders in the air. Fires rage up tinder hillsides from train sparks, above the trees, 100 feet up, as high above the tracks as the slag pits beneath.  Everywhere in season the hills run red with springs out of the hillside waters of the Woods. They come down the hill from the veins of coal pits after mining, culm dumps, hillocks. Leach residue and tail slime slick the terra-cone watershed, which is the hardest part to know of Humanyte connectedness, compassion, relation, love.

 

            A high bluff on the southeast, Backbone Road overlooks and commands the whole valley there, towering above its neighbors like selective memories that fire kilns of those who think they know. Not that anything can be done to change the way space extracts sulphur from blanket rock or meteorite impact vaporizes sulphur and sin, such that, were the child is infected. Vaporized three times faster than iron by the effects of impact and ion bombardment in the sputtering solar wind, the blows bring light to describe the fertile place at work in the tissue where creation groans individual and social bodies together and feminine and masculine meet, some parts hard, and others not, and the body holds out its arms to the other to do the same, and the saved child pulls pins on the earthly good of the inscrutable corruption of Breughel & Bosch from the coal and window dressing of the towns and the jpeg bloom.

In voluntude the Sovereign One ordains audacity and sentience, a tapestry fertile and corrupt. Sheol sans fire can claim the comedy of desire that says life is a changing event, a Ledean white yolk shell, hollow of cheek and mind, a king caked with mold. Maunders about revealing count up to ten in the western wall of Jerusalem. The candled wood-knots shine blood red.  On the creek, incandescence and later diffusion like fish and fisherman hail blasphemy in these hearts that “suffer to possess the tabernacle as they sometimes are, and say the Pater ignosce” with Dr. Donne:

“Father forgive them, which allows all that is done a weight of future glory to counterpose as soon as an upright man appears. As though the greatest weakness in this world were man, and the greatest fault in man were to be good, made the Sewer of all corruption, of all the sins of the world, as no son of God but a mere man, as no man, but a worm. You would think the good would have its reward, but they are blamed for all the evil they did not do. If it goes against the grain of youth then say Pater ignosce. Ignosce, ignorant of their deeds, but not of the counter weight to them, the bulls of  Bashan Pondus Gloriae, weight of glory, earthquake, flood, prison. So let me pay my debts with my bones in this penurious prison! …to recompense the wantonness of youth."  

Advanced achievments of history mix together and explode. The water watchers don’t bother the fish in a bowl as long what they don’t see. Walk the stones and skip the creek. Take your passage from innocence to guilt as if given both a disease and at the same time its vaccination, not a shot but an attitude of mind. The beauty du mal repented by Baudelaire washes the superfund sites after short-term victims are gone. It remains in cell phones and aluminum. You can surf in memory all day long the different phosphates of the sun. Editors of shame maintain this is good. My soul is among lions: and I lie even among them that are set on fire. The subterrain converse rehearses hispid sticks and spits. Translating aural sense with the nose, lenses in the eye to oppose thinking, except to say what is compelled, cones increase toward center. Rods increase and cones decrease. The fovea focuses light. There is nothing like a boy who remembers it so long that he can trace the events.

The coal, the creek, the railroad, the snow might be just appearances of degraded choices that followed him. The five year old who emerges from the undermined coal seams, extracted by the memorist many times his age, like the small swift drawings of Kline of anthracite or bituminous culm piles of slag, magnified become magnificent. Whether dug in the ground or from open pits mined west, six billion tons of anthracite reserve and a hundred times of bituminous stretch the expansion cracks.

 To see yourself naked in mind, but only when clothed are you whole, these lines reveal the lines and planes. Forms repeat patterns of the heart of the being of the world. The morning sky shows overlap to the tale of breath. Maybe we are not aware, but Place is breath canoeing and exploring the major rivers and caves  and knowing the sudden storms. You may obtain more explosives from Fischer Chemical. Pounds of potassium chlorate and nitrate, charcoal, sulphur, red phosphorus and mercury are histories of time, like society, leadership, affluence.   

These conclude the ages for 15 and 16 old boy who operated a premillenial superheated bath with caustic derivatives for the bronze memorials made by J. H. Matthews and Company’s above-ground entombments. Working over  a vat fired by large burners, washing off the names of the deceased afixed in bronze letters with wax, with arm length rubber gloves and steel brushes in summer worked. The native in that commute later from a sheep ranch on the Balcones Fault for a doctorate in literature and linguistics washed bottles after for Dr. Lester Reed at the Clayton Foundation for five years, practiced aikido with Bill Lee, wrote Native Texans, A Calendar of Poems, & Restorations of the Golden Age in New World Discoveries, and knowing the transcendent love of a wife, M. A. of the University of Wales and M.D., whom knowing experienced later years of a family and ceramic sculpture beyond all imagining of the person here, as Chuang Tze would say, born of the fitness that forgets about all that is fitting, in extreme chances thrown out of habit to new steps from knowing, give all and everything.

Soul Spinning

We are not digressing from our theme but progress to understand that those worlds prepare Humanyte even in the industrial Viscose plants, spinning affording such.  Since shuttered, but wandering all hours through them like caves, on no particular assignment, where huge vats, thirty, forty foot were tall metaphors of remembrances of eternity in time in the stillness of implicit being and power, this job gave that instruction in the compulsion of patterns mediated through time, held open by belief beyond the acetate that spins the world.

Caught up in the acetate spinning rooms filled with rows and rows of spinners that went clack, clack-clack as they spun rayon out of sulphuric acid baths, the smell of acid mist in the air, viscose forced through spinnerets from scaled-up versions of a butter churn turned into fiber strings. Call this fabric as the same as spun the world world. Why do we repeat? Because there are two.

 The acid coagulated and solidified the filaments, regenerated cellulose jet spun, emitting zinc and hydrogen sulfide. The filaments wound on spools, passed through rollers, washed, bleached, rinsed, dried, and rewound again, pretty far from dipping a needle in a viscous solution of mulberry pulp and gummy rubber as it all began. The early product called Chardonnay would burn like gasoline. The viscose fiber spun to create the illusion of the world was nothing beside these vats, the tanks of thingness, materiality alone,  Dinglichkeit, a magnificent state, but without cognition of the pocket Gower who writes, filled with apprehension I shall sing true dreams whose import disturbs the depths of my heart. May he whom the Isle of Patmos received in Apocalypse, and whose name I bear, guide this work. Unstaunched in this solitude, the beyond large warehouse-sized American Viscose plant in Lewistown, PA was completely swept away by flood. 

 Iowa

The next step toward the impossible holding that all human beings are geniuses came in studies at Iowa for two years where Murray Krieger was then writing Ekphrasis on the written descriptions of works of art, and Rosalie Colie writing Paradoxia Epidemica on the renaissance tradition of paradox, a bow to Sir Thomas Browne’s 1646 work, Pseudodoxia Epidemica, empirical observations of nature. The science and imagination of the renaissance proved as paradigmatic a study as Paradise Lost in its underpinning of epic structures, especially referencing the invisible made visible and giving the thoughts of heroic mind underlying renaissance epic. From the deep structure of imagination drawn in person, places and situations predisposed to respond the way we do, sometimes romantic as in the Spenser’s Faerie Queene and Marlowe’s long poems and plays, sometimes biblical in Paradise Lost, the huge political and social underpinnings of Shakespeare, the rolling sympathies of Donne’s lyrical Anniversaries that extend to his sermons is a landscape always beautiful, various and new.

Heroic and naïve efforts to attain new worlds, geographical, astronomical and encompassing all relations of men and women with all myth of the ancients thrown together with botany inescapable, overwhelming, must be accepted on its own terms and no other, in this last of three ages, the renaissance. The untrammeled swallows up goodness and mercy, temptation and failure where 5^th century Greece and first century Rome were surpassed in Italy and England, sustaining those flowers even as they incorporate them. Commercial myths of new world crescendo and storm seas roll into the great writing of the last Yeats and Joyce until the future walls of domination and liberation begin.

 All this and more. until that combined with meeting one on one with Donald Justice as he was writing Night Light. But none of it could have been comprehended without the intensive study of biblical texts afforded as an undergraduate with Clarence Mason and Andrew Telford at the Philadelphia College Bible, nights, and amplified by studying the results with Ricardo Foulkes among the many genuine intellects of the Seminario Biblio Latinamericano in San Jose Costa Rica. Further, relationships formed at the Texas with Winifred Lehman and Edgar Poleme in linguistics transitioned to T. M. Cranfill, brilliant Shakespeare scholar, editor of the Texas Quarterly and director of my dissertation. His classes were performances in which he read the plays in nuanced intonations to feel the thought of those ironic turns almost always opaque to American speech. Beyond that there were uncounted conversations with the higher mind of one fellow student, translator to be, John Cullen, for all the seven years we studied together for doctorates at Texas. The para-geography of imaginary worlds of Douglass Parker and Raja Rao’s inquiries of how one becomes two offered in the course of this residence, in association with  Dean Henry Burlage of Pharmacy in an attempt to revitalize the  Pharmacy Garden, planting a lavender field in the Texas Hill Country, knowing Robert L. Williams at the beginning of his priesthood at St. Hilarion’s, and his circle, when he celebrated mass every morning and I was often the only one in attendance for six months of that lifetime after the death of Carl Bowers, but before he became a linguist of pre-Hispanic Mixtec.

Anyway I took comfort from Kierkegaard’s prefaces, Wittgenstein’s so very simple expressions of Blue Book and Philosophical Investigations and Kafka’s compassion for the world of life, all greatly supported by readings in Emmanuel Levinas and Geoffrey Hartman, to show the reason and wonder. My bona fides in ceramic sculptures executed late exhibited this where there was no need to speak what you think.

 But one seems to get help, so to reckon the score, Jose Donoso, the Chilean novelist  met on an airport bench in Panama City airport that night after receiving the news of my brother’s death in Philadelphia and to encourage my loved ones I took a sudden flight to return. It had been a whirlwind since I had gotten the news earlier that morning as I was on a bus to travel myself to the most remote part of the country, by train, then mule to the region south. A note was handed to return to San Jose just before I left, which landed on that Panama bench for a five hour layover for the flight to Miami then further north. Jose Donoso, actually on his way to Iowa then sat down and perceiving the state of my mind suggested we hire a cab and tour the canal in the wee hours a while, since he was on the same flight to Miami. This we did and whatever that meant was too deep to fathom, like a dream perhaps, but at leave taking later he gave me his card, otherwise I’d never have known. The agony is that all the time he was at Iowa the same time I was I never made the connection. When I did, much later, and redressed the balance in elimae, he was already gone. There were two other helps in that time, Donoso Escobar’s face of sorrow as he watched me pack and Fred Phillips back in Merion at the funeral who came with coat and tie to express his sorrow. Stand ins, volunteers for the self.

The moment recognized before waking is known immediately as not only possible but as unbelievable, amorphous and dissolving as waking takes hold. But back at the planning,  imagine the line that were the mission easy it were pointless, and further, that if it had promise what was achieved gave expression to the difficulty sought, the impact of forces, the provision of allies, the wrestling of odds self-designed to give or get no breaks in order to bake the chemical water out of the clay of that mighty coalition of blessing and danger, which phrase was found written on the walls at Glastonbury.

                        Adapted from Soul Spinning at Gobbet and A Sacred history of Coal by Augusto Todoele, pseud, at Thrice Fiction 27.